November 2014

Take a moment and breathe…

Written November 5th @ 1:00pm

Can you believe we are in November? Yesterday Crystal and I had to do a few errands in the mall. Yes, my studio is located in Lindale Mall but when you are there all the time sometimes you don’t notice things. Like Von Maur has there beautiful Christmas stuff up, so does Express and the Christmas music is already playing in the mall. We smiled but then we said can’t we enjoy the leaves and fall until Thanksgiving? Shocking how fast time flies. I can’t believe that it has already been a couple of months since I last did a post. Hmmm let’s reflect…

Proud of being a mom!

Crystal and our family is doing good. Sure the emotions can get to you but then you remind yourself that things are good right now.

So many people reach out to talk about their stories. You listen, you find yourself reflecting on want you have gone through and sometimes it’s hard not to cry. You even find yourself in shock that you have lived through that. As they continue with their story, which lately seems to not have very good endings, you are thankful that they feel they can reach out to you. Even though your heart is aching.

Shortly after Crystal’s Mayo Appointment, she became very sad even with her good news. Crystal finally made the choice to see her counselor. I was so happy. She asked me to take her and when she came out of the office she smiled and said, “I am going to see her again two weeks before my next Mayo Appointment. And mom she said it’s normal to have these feelings and actually with everything I have gone through, she said she would be worried if I didn’t have these feelings.” Oh just to have her have someone else talk to in a strange way takes a little weight off of your shoulders.

Some exciting news for Crystal & her boyfriend Gage. They have moved into a Condo together. There own little place. I must say that has put a smile on both of their faces. And as a mother I am so thankful that I get to see that. Of course my daughter is my life but oh goodness did God Bless her with Gage.

We are missing Courtney & Mitch in this photo but they were with us in Spirit!

On another note with Halloween just passing, I have learned that Crystal does not care for this day?!#*!# What? I never knew that. We have always decorated our home crazy except for the last couple of years. The girls dressed every year to the point they were getting to old to do it. Plus Spirit Staff dresses for the week. So I am thinking it is because now she is an adult? She has to not only buy her costume but figure it out and do it herself. lol Anyway, hopefully you all had a safe Halloween.

Okay, the next big question I have been getting is…how do I feel about the woman who took her life because of Cancer? Well, it is a sad story. It is not my story. I embrace it, I can feel it, I understand it and I send prayers to her family and friends that are affected by it. That is it. I do not judge and no matter what, the story is sad. With my other thoughts, the 22 year old that was taken and they can not find her. Is heart wrenching as well. Listening to her father speak, you can feel his heart hurting…I would never ever want that feeling. To have your child being abducted at any age, I cannot imagine it, the pain I couldn’t describe it. That is when I say I am thankful for what I have. My daughter maybe fighting Pancreatic Cancer but I know where she is. So there are sad stories everywhere, who’s is more important? Everyone has a story, it’s how you handle it. It is your character and we are not to judge.

Now, we know a lot of you pray for Crystal daily. Thank you. And if we can all come together on December 4th hopefully we will get good news two times in a row! 6:00am on the 4th is Crystal’s next big appointment.

Thanksgiving is coming right around the corner. What are you thankful for? When you say, I am thankful for my journey, my choices, my life, whether it hurt or made you smile, it makes you feel better. It makes you feel stronger. Try it….