October 2018

I can’t sleep.

Written Monday, October 29th @11:30pm

I am laying in bed, tossing and turning, my mind will not rest.  I guess a perfect time to do a little update for you and get those prayers started for Crystal’s Mayo Appointment on Wednesday.

Crystal is looking great.  She feels good too.  But like she says, I have felt fine before and the cancer still had come back.  Yes, she has had some emotional days, I think we all have, however we’ve been extremely busy and that has helped keep her mind on other things.

Crystal has been dancing like crazy, with all of the changes in the dance studio it has been very busy and uplifting, positive also it has been going well.  Crystal was excited for the change, yet nervous how she would feel about it and after our first “Experience” she said, “Mom, that was fun.  I really didn’t know I would have that much enjoyment with it”.  I must say, seeing her smile and happy made me even more happy that we are still dancing.

Crystal and I loving the view…

Also since the last time I updated, Crystal and I went to Laughlin, NV.  It was wonderful, it was perfect, it was needed.  Just a few days at the pool, then some sight seeing.  Memories were made and yet it gave her sometime to relax after that last painful procedure.

I can tell you a little story.  We were doing some shopping at Bath & Body Works, one of our favorite stores.  As we are smelling some of the wall fragrances, picking our favorites, Crystal had picked one up and said, “Oh No Mom, don’t get this one.  It make me almost sick to my stomach”. I said, “Does it smell bad? What’s wrong with it?” Crystal says, “When I had my apartment with Teal (her roommate), we picked this smell for the our place.  It was when I got sick.  I can’t smell that mom.” Crystal walked to the other side of the store.  That was it, she was quiet.  We bought our stuff and left.

Crystal had a very hard time with clothes that she wore when she was first sick, the thought of wearing them again made her sad.  We got rid of a lot of clothes from that Christmas.  The smell of Windex because we were doing a deep cleaning in the studio before the new year and she had no energy. And then the smell of this wall fragrance…So that got me thinking.  When we were on our family vacation in FL in 2013, we had no idea how sick Crystal was, on that trip I ate a lot of this Salted Carmel Ice Cream, it was amazing, I had never heard of it before.  Coming home from that family trip is when we learned of Crystal’s diagnosis.  Makes me sad typing that memory.  Anyway, a month later some of my students got me a gift, some chocolate that was Salted Carmel since they knew I loved it on that vacation.  You know, I took one bite and I was sick.  I couldn’t eat it.  I can’t handle the smell of it or the thought of it…

They say out of the fives senses (touch, smell, sight, sound and taste), smell is more related to our memory system.

A family picture from 2006 vs 2018… Happy Halloween!

Anyway, thank you in advance for those positive vibes and prayers.  Happy Halloween to you all.  This last weekend we celebrated Halloween as a family since we knew this Halloween would be a little different for our family.