I am in shock, I can’t seem to shake it, so maybe writing about it will help.
2023 is suppose to be my year of TRUST. I am trusting God with this next part of my new life’s journey after the CR Spirits of 30 years comes to an end in March. I am trusting God that I am exactly where he wanted me to be. That I have fulfilled what he wanted me to do with the gift he gave me.I am trusting God with Crystal’s new treatment. A new plan for her life’s journey, that it will work and we will see no more new tumors, or growth of the other ones. I trust that she remains hopeful and positive through this change in her career, her health, her life.
But 2023 has started out with fear, heartache, worry and now anger. “Someone” I will not mention as I will not give her any more attention. “Someone” I have prayed for, that I have followed on social media. “Someone” that my heart hurt for her and her family. “Someone” I have never met but if I could help, I wanted to. That “someone”, well she was arrested yesterday for the fundraisers she has had with her battle with cancer, actually the same cancer as Crystal fights. Her GoFund Me has raised over $37,000 that is just GoFund Me! She was very close to the same age as Crystal when she was diagnosed almost a year ago. This has been going on for almost a year….WOW. So believable and yet a lie? Yes, she was arrested for fraud.
I can’t even imagine doing something like this. It hurts my heart and I am still in disbelief. The fundraisers we have had for Crystal has literally gone to medical, hotels, gas, bills etc.. We have never misused any of it. And as sad, as embarrassing as it is to say, we needed it. Rod and I needed it, Crystal and Gage needed it as it helped with hotel stays, those extra expenses, etc.. And as the fundraising money has gone, her expenses still remain and this next new form of treatment is even more costly. This time will need to be at Mayo for each treatment which is every other month, besides her quarterly check ups there. The money, the worry, again I find myself using my word for the year, TRUST, trusting God.And then I see this “someone” a young woman lie? Really?
Crystal’s journey has helped me find God again. It has helped me be a better person, as a women, a daughter, a mother, a wife, a friend, a coach, her heartache showed me that there is good people out there and we sure have lived through it the last 10 years.
Things you may not know, as I choose to only share with close family/friends over the years is:Crystal has had people approach her on this journey stating that she is lying of her cancer.
She doesn’t look sick. She seems fine.
One night out with friends, a group of women asked her to show them her scar because they didn’t believe her…People she never has met and trying to pick a fight.
But Crystal has graciously stayed calm, but I will be honest, her mother struggled.
I received a letter also in the beginning of this journey that Crystal’s path is because of the choices I have made…I was sickened but my fighter gave me strength and reminded me of who I am, and that my choices have been just fine.
The people that came into her sisters lives for support but were there for the wrong intentions, we have prayed for them. As a mom, I always reminded my girls to listen to how they talk, does their words match their actions. Look at them today, time heals as you get wiser.
The family that has stated their opinions to others, that has eventually come back to us, very hurtful, but we have risen above it. We can’t choose our family but we can choose who we respect and who we trust.
This fighter, this mother of a fighter has had friends/people suggest that Crystal uses this cancer for attention, that her mother uses it for marketing her business. Crystal has smiled and said mom, pray for them, they need it more than me, than us.
There are countless stories, shocking ones but not ready to share, not ready to give it attention.So when I saw this news last night of this “someone”, I couldn’t sleep, I dwelled on it. I feel bad for her next chapter in life, as her words have not matched her actions. Yet, I believe you are innocent until you are proven guilty. Just because you don’t look sick, doesn’t mean that you are not.
And as for Crystal’s prayer warriors, thank you for never giving up, for believing, for loving our family like it is yours, 10 years of fighting, I couldn’t imagine not having the support and prayers from so many.
On Valentine’s Day, Crystal will not be eating chocolate, she will be having an 8 hour radiation cocktail. The worry, the fear, I can’t describe for her but as her mom, it is heart wrenching. As Crystal has called Mayo twice now, making sure she will be fine to dance on the stage one last time. Saturday, March 4th END of an ERA!
TRUST….
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